I found myself in tears today during and after yoga. That’s the quiet beauty of the practice — it gently opens the places we try so hard to hold together. I’m in a good place overall, though both past memories and present concerns continue to surface at times.
I may never fully comprehend why John Mayer, someone with mutual connections chose, and perhaps still chooses, to wound me with such intention.
He extended support to my ex, even hosting him at a concert, and in turn attempted to use whatever he could against me — someone who harmed — me — despite knowing exactly what that past represented. Even now, looking at the photo makes me physically ill. I would never treat my worst enemy the way he treated me.
I’m trying to let it go, but today it still stung. As a wise Jewish mentor once told me, “You may never get over it, but you will get through it — day by day.”
Breathe,
Jennifer Nicole Nelson, Principal Designer
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